Do You Enjoy God?

ImageI’m teaching through the New City Catechism on Wednesday nights with my youth, and last night we landed on Question Six: How Can We Glorify God? If you’re not familiar with catechesis, the process is simple: new initiates into the Christian faith are taken through a series of questions and answers designed to instill the essential doctrines of the faith. While historic catechisms (such as the Heidelberg and Westminster) have traditionally been substantive at over 100 questions, the New City Catechism is a mere 52.

(And for a youth pastor wanting to teach basic doctrine, a completely free curriculum that includes materials like commentary and video, plus runs for an entire year? That’s gravy, baby.)

So, back to the question from last night: How can we glorify God?

We glorify God by enjoying him, loving him, trusting him, and by obeying his will, commands, and law. (See Deuteronomy 11:1)

As I shared with the kids last night, I’m completely familiar with the second, third and fourth answer to the question. I’ve been taught all my life that the Christian without question loves God, trusts God and obeys God in all areas of his or her life. Toss in church attendance and making a joyful noise unto the Lord, and you pretty much have the whole of Christian experience as far as I knew growing up. Not saying there was anything wrong with it; I’m just saying that the Christian life was composed mainly of actions that avoided God’s disapproval.

Enjoyment doesn’t fit into that mold.

I suppose God is disappointed when we don’t enjoy Him, but enjoyment carries such positive connotations; people don’t worry about things like disappointment or fear or rejection when they do something they truly enjoy. All they’re really concerned about is getting maximum enjoyment from said thing. Be it painting or sailing or flying or eating or singing or dancing or reading or writing or whatever, when we’re on a quest to enjoy something, we push until we’re satisfied.

Which brings me back to the idea of enjoying God. How intense, how deep, how satisfying must the joy be that comes from enjoying the One who knows no limit, has no fault, forgives all sin, covers all shame and heals all wounds? What better source of joy than the Only True God?

Yet so many Christians don’t actually enjoy Him. I think it’s because we’re so steeped in the idea of doing things that don’t disappoint Him. I can’t recall ever really being encouraged to delight God; I’ve been told He delights in me anyway, but that delight is usually connected to whether or not I obeyed or read or didn’t disappoint Him. It took all of the positive perspective out of the action.

To know that I can enjoy God, simply for who He is, because He enjoys me, is a strange and wonderful truth. As one of my students pointed out, often we’re too aware of our sin and self-consciously deny ourselves the opportunity to enjoy communion with the Father. We won’t allow ourselves to enjoy His presence, to enjoy His love.

Take a moment and dwell on the truth that God, because of His perfect character, because of His sovereign goodness, chooses to love us. Not for any other reason than that He’s God. To know that our striving is in vain. To know that we can sit in the sunshine and eat a popsicle or drink a Coke, and just be with Him without trying to please Him. To see a sunrise, or a dream come true, or laugh at a joke and God not only be okay with it, but join us in the endeavor – how wonderful is that thought?

I don’t want to sound all happy-clappy, but there’s room enough for both the idea of living for God and living with God. I know the tricks of the trade when it comes to living for; where I’m deficient is living with. I want to be someone who can say, with all my heart, that I enjoy my Father in heaven, and that He receives glory from that.

How about you? Have you ever thought about just enjoying God? Or have you always been more concerned about not disappointing Him?

Disciplining My Child Through “Criminal Minds”

This is a picture I found online. If it had been a picture of the actual incident, the kid would've been crying like Tammy Faye Bakker.

There are times when fatherhood really bites. Sure, most people want to hear about the glorious poetic moments that make people reach for the Kleenex or look back longingly at their child’s baby pictures, but those moments don’t tell the whole tale. If every part of fatherhood was sunshine and sundaes, men wouldn’t build massive basement rooms into which they escape.

I don’t have a basement, so I just blog about the things that drive me crazy. Like yesterday, when I picked Ella up from school and learned that she had told one of her good friends in class, “You need to shut your mouth.”

Now, my daughter is, by all accounts, quite spunky. I would say sassy, but that can be taken too negatively. She’s bright, highly energetic, and sometimes says things that she shouldn’t (and often she has no clue she’s said anything wrong). So when the teacher told me about the infraction, and about the context of it, I immediately felt my blood rise.

Apparently, Ella sensed it too. She immediately started crying.

I can’t remember who wrote the line, but someone once said that it’s easier to stop an out-of-control train than a woman’s tears. That’s certainly true of Ella – once she gets the water flowing, it takes forever and a day to get her to stop. She’s a sensitive little girl, and it just doesn’t take much to make her cry.

So when she started squalling, there was a part of me that felt bad. I knew she knew she was in trouble, and really, isn’t that what discipline is all about? Teaching your child to have a conscience? But I’m too easy on Ella sometimes, so, determined not to be fazed by the tears, I gave her my “disappointed” look, a gaze that, when trained upon my children can wither steel and crush the human soul, but, when trained upon my wife, earns me a “What? Do you have to fart?” Ella withered. The tears flowed harder.

Did I mention we’re still standing inside the church? We hadn’t even made it to the car yet. There I stand like an unfeeling statue and my daughter is weeping so hard she might choke. I gently placed my hand on her shoulder and guided her down the hall.

“Would you like to tell me what happened today?” I asked.

“No,” she replied.

Ask a stupid question… And, if I may have an aside for a moment, this is something I learned from my dad – asking the guilty child to provide their account of the crime – but it’s only been through watching Criminal Minds recently that I’ve learned just how effective this technique is, actually. You watch Hotch or Rossi in an interrogation, and they almost always nail the bad guy by leading him/her into telling their side of the story, and BINGO! – case solved.

And actually, there’s really something to that idea – part of parenthood is being able to profile your kid, to understand their likes and dislikes, to know their personalities so well that you can almost interpret an action without needing the child to do it for you. Maybe I’m just a nerd who likes that sort of thing, but I have to confess: knowing Ella the way I do (and knowing that I don’t know everything about her) helps me to be a better parent.

So, for all you new parents out there: you can learn much about parenthood by watching Criminal Minds. Just sayin’.

In this instance, I knew it was unlike her to say something so brutal to anyone, let alone a friend. It’s just not Ella’s style or personality; she tends to be more affirming than that, even when she’s being bossy. So, as we hopped in the car, I was pretty sure that if I pressed her for an explanation, I would uncover some extenuating circumstances.

Another aside – this doesn’t mean that I was looking for an excuse NOT to discipline her; I was looking for the answers to know how to discipline her correctly. There’s a big difference, in case you didn’t know. Any fool can punish a child – that takes no imagination and next to no skill; but it takes a honest parent to correct a child and teach them something that helps them learn. I’m not down with just punishing a kid (though, sometimes, I see the merits…) so I push to understand and then correct. It also gives me time to calm down so I don’t just beat a butt in my anger.

OK – where were we? Oh yeah – getting the story from Ella.

As it turns out, her friend had been the subject of some teasing all day (apparently Ella and her classmates have become enamored with the subject of pooping in non-bathroom locations) and Ella’s friend wasn’t saying anything to defend herself. And, if you know preschool kids, they don’t know when to back off. If a poop joke is funny the first time, it’s funny the next 312 times. So naturally they just kept pouring it on the poor girl. Finally, Ella had heard enough and, in an epic FAIL of an attempt to support and encourage her friend, she said, “You need to make so-and-so shut her mouth.”

My daughter, the life-coach.

Suffice it to say, after hearing this, I felt differently. First of all, what she said made more sense than what the teacher had reported. Let me pause for a second and say I support the teacher 100% in telling me what she heard and how she handled it. She did it the absolute right way and I got her back. Just because it didn’t sound like something Ella would say doesn’t mean Ella didn’t or wouldn’t say it; in point of fact, she said something pretty darned close, in both verbiage and meaning.

But I felt differently because I now understood that Ella didn’t mean to attack her friend, she meant to help her. And honestly, I see how she comes to this: it’s a bizarre and perfect mix of her mother’s and my personalities. I tend to be the more compassionate, side-with-the-victim person in our family, and Rachel tends to be the shut-up-and-fix-it person. Ella somehow meshed both into one statement and simultaneously encouraged and berated her friend.

That’s a little thing we like to call talent.

Anyway, long story short, I did what any good parent would do:

“Well, thank you for the explanation. We’ll have to see what your mother says when we get home.”

That’s right – I shifted the burden to Moms. Well, part of the burden. When we got home, I gave Rachel a quick rundown and then had Ella recount her crime for her mother. Rachel seemed satisfied with the mea culpa, and worked out a plea bargain for Ella: Ella would have play quietly in her room instead of being able to watch a movie, and she would have to apologize to her friend at church last night. Ella nodded and slinked away her room, halfway between relief and devastation. I watched approvingly.

If it had been an episode of Criminal Minds, we would’ve quoted some author everyone says they’ve read but no one really has. And we would have been on a private plane. But this is life, and real drama isn’t so tidy.

Postscript – Ella apologized to her friend last night before their Bible class. Her friend looked at her, said, “What are you talking about?”, and then skipped away to play with a puzzle. Again, not as tidy as a TV ending, but ultimately good for my kid.